One of my least favorite things is to be disappointed in anyone, but especially myself. And here I am,

I have been steadily employed since I was fourteen, and when I lost my job in March it seemed that my sudden inability to earn combined with my growing depression and anxiety that I would be unable to return to Idaho for school in April. My parents are angels, however, and have spent, by my best guess, around $3000 on me so that I could continue to be educated, receive free therapy from the school, and live on my own.

This semester I took five classes and I have utterly failed two of them, and I am so embarrassed and so disappointed in myself. While not at risk of being put on academic probation, I am sick to my stomach at the thought of returning home only to tell my parents that I used their money to come and learn and earn good grades only to fail. I hate it. I know I will only feel better once I have done two things: paid back the majority, if not all, of the money my parents spent on me, and bring my grades back up.

I am not looking forward to telling my parents this. Promises to improve so often seem empty and flat, but I feel like I have to prove my integrity.

Next semester will be incredibly hard. I’ll be working 15 hours a week to avoid using more of my parent;s money, I’ll take out my first student loans, I’ll have a larger credit load, and I’ll be officially off of my antidepressants. I am terrified. I am completely, utterly, insanely afraid. I feel that God has led me here, and though He has given me a choice, He will help me see it through. My faith is being stretched. I hope I can trust enough to not get cold feet and stay home.

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I got bumped up to a C in my religion class hallelujah oh my g o s h

maddydahling:

actualsithlordsam:

I got tagged by the beautiful maddydahling to do the selfie thingy and I’m not tagging anyone but I think I’m a pretty cute girl so here ya go

LOOKIT HOW CUTE SAM IS

you’re one to talk missy

My grades from this semester are seriously awful and I move across the country in a day and I am ON MY PERIOD

I got tagged by the beautiful maddydahling to do the selfie thingy and I’m not tagging anyone but I think I’m a pretty cute girl so here ya go

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dallonsmiles:

ryansgayliner:

the thrilling saga in which Panic! owns the fuck out of WBC

A+ handling of the situation

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fuckyeahsexanddrugs:

this is literally what happens when a young adult starts working full time

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Marvel’s Chris trifecta

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crusherccme:

found this gem in the 1996 Cornell Women’s Handbook. it’s what to say when a guy tries to get out of using a condom

crusherccme:

found this gem in the 1996 Cornell Women’s Handbook. it’s what to say when a guy tries to get out of using a condom

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